As more and more time passes my biggest fear is coming true. I will miss my sister’s one and only college graduation.  Although we are in the process of figuring out a way, via technology, that I can still “see her graduate” in my heart it will never be the same. 

You see I have been to every momentous occasion for my siblings. I cannot imagine not being able to watch my youngest sister walk across the stage to receive her diploma.  As much as everyone continues to remind me that she will be going on to graduate school and that I can go to that graduation ceremony it will never be the same. 

People go to college and receive their undergraduate degree once in a lifetime.  Yes they move on and continue their education in a variety of other ways but one only has ONE graduation for their undergraduate degree.  She will only graduate with her bachelor’s once in her lifetime and I will not be able to see it happen.

Of course with technology there are plenty of ways I could make this happen but as it turns out those different methods are starting not to pan out either.  My heart is broken..

I do know that my sister would rather I be at home protecting myself and her newborn niece but I can’t help think about all that I will miss in just that one day.  Will she really be ok with it? 

And yes my other family members will be there and be able to take lots of pictures but it still won’t be the same.  Will I have to be photoshopped into those photos?  Will it still be the same?

Only time will tell……