trying to balance it all…

Are you a working mom?  Are you a homeschool teacher & mom?  Are you struggling to balance your work, your kids’ work, take care of yourself, your partner, and your house, all at the same time?  I sure am trying to do it all, but I am failing miserably at all of the above.  I shouldn’t really say I am failing because everything is a work in progress, but I just don’t feel like I am doing well at one particular thing or area.  What is the secret to successfully balancing it all?  I guess the reality is… there’s no secret.  It’s all so damn hard!

Yes, the college I work at is closed to those not considered essential, and all classes and services have moved online, but my position is a 12-month position.  That means I have to work all summer.  There are programs, events, services, and other work that needs to be done.  And now that everything is online, everything seems to be that much harder.  But thankfully, the people in my department are all hardworking, kindhearted, and supportive.  We are doing everything in our power to keep supporting the students, the faculty, and the staff both on and off-campus.  And, in between doing all of that, we are working on completing our 10 page departmental Summer To-Do List.

Moreover, I have found it hard to get all of my work done during the day in between all the Zoom and Teams meetings.  And for those of us still considered essential personnel, we are the kind of people who thrive on interaction with others.  We want to talk to each other when we come across others in their space.  So, completing your work for the day can be difficult.  Just because students aren’t living on campus in the summertime, doesn’t always mean we are able to get massive amounts of work done in a day.  Plus we have several students both on and off-campus who don’t have a central home to go home to, so they have stayed on campus or in their off-campus apartments.

In between my Zoom and Teams meetings, and the work that needs to be done that day, there are still two kids at home who are relying on me and their father to help guide and support them with their school assignments, zoom classes, etc.  YES, the kids are old enough and capable of doing some of the work on their own, but they are still children and they need direction and intervention.  I am so thankful that I don’t teach classes anymore (not that I taught in the summer anyway), there would be no way K2, KAM, and I would be able to manage all of that at home, in the same space, and all on the WiFi together.

And just when I begin to think, there is an end in sight, I look at K2’s school calendar and find that they don’t finish school until the end of June.  I just don’t know how much longer any of us can keep doing this.  The school work they are being taught now is all brand NEW material.  KMM is in Spanish Immersion and my Spanish is only as good as Google Translate.  KEM is in 7th grade and has 4 subjects to work on.  There is no way teachers can glean from a virtual class session, in 60 minutes, that the kids are lost.  Kids at both of their ages should not have to be teaching themselves.  Then add in the curveball of the Common Core!  KAM and I are not stupid; we have a total of 4 degrees between the two of us.  We can barely understand how K2 do Common Core math, and now we need to figure out how to help them.

Could things be worse?  Yes, they could be much worse.

Are we lucky to be in the situation we are in with both of us having a job and having a consistent income?  Yes, of course.

But, that doesn’t make anything any easier on the kids, me, or their father.

And ever since COVID-19 hit the United States, I find myself praying every single day that there will be a resolution to all of this… and soon.

 

how did I get here???

When I sit down with a student, I find myself asking questions that I think will help us both ‘right the ship so to speak’.  Some questions I ask are “How do you think you got IMG_2908here”?; “What specifically happened or contributed to your current situation”?; “What are some steps you can take to BETTER your current situation”?

Sometimes students do not know the answers right away and need additional coaxing or questioning to get to the answers.  I tell students they can’t go back and change the steps they took that resulted with them being in the specific predicament they’re in now.  But they can learn from those consequences or mistakes and carry them into each new choice they make moving forward.

Ironically, I find myself in a similar position and am asking myself SIMILAR questions.  If someone sat me down right now and asked me those questions, I would be able to offer several answers to explain my current circumstance(s).  I don’t need additional prompting or questioning to help figure out which steps or decisions I made that led me to this point.  I don’t need it because I’m already aware of several choices I made that led me to where I am now.  I already know too that I can’t go back and change those mistakes.  I can only move forward and try to make better choices and decisions now.  Use the lessons I have learned from the past and try to do and be better.  But the hardest challenge for me is that not only do I have to think about the consequences of my choices personally, but I have to think about how they affected my family.

And no, I may not have been thinking about how my choices might affect my family back then, in the moment, but that is something I will have to live with.  I choose now to live in the present day.  I choose to not dwell on the past or those choices or mistakes.  I have to focus on what can I do right here, right now.  What is it that I need to do right now to be the best version of life for my family?!

I learned as a child, growing up in a Catholic Church, that it is normal to make mistakes (sin) because we are only human and often fallible.  What matters is that we ask for forgiveness and make changes to those ‘sinful’ behaviors, or learn from those mistakes, so as to not do them again.  And sometimes we don’t learn from those mistakes the first or second time; maybe we don’t learn from those mistakes until the fourth time.

But the point is that the a lesson has been learned, and changes have been implemented.  On the other hand, sometimes the changes that need to be implemented come a little too late.  Of course, that isn’t a good thing, because implementing the change is too late and the damage has already been done.  But, do you sit down and let life stay in that damaging moment?  Or do you move forward and work to be better?

It is ok to move on from situations that no longer provide you with valuable lessons.  Maybe you have exhausted all possible avenues to take in order to rectify the situation.  Maybe it is ok to decide to take a new path because this one has been traveled for too long.   And sometimes, maybe it is ok to give up and/or walk away…

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smell the flowers… see the colors…

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Kane being silly after drinking his cup of “silly juice”.

I am not a big fan of doctors.  I don’t have anything against them, I just usually find going to them to be anxiety producing.  I especially don’t like having procedures done when they have to put me to sleep.  Don’t get me wrong, I would much rather get put to sleep for the procedure than be wide awake, but knowing I am getting medication to be put to sleep scares the bejesus out of me.  This utter fear quadruples when it is one of my children who gets put to sleep.  I turn into a basket case from the moment the nurses give them the “silly juice” to calm them down until I get back to the recovery room with them after the procedure has finished.  Does anyone else with they could place an order for their own “silly juice”?  I need that “silly juice” for when the nurses finally wheel my kid away to the surgical room.

Last Friday the weather was perfect to sit in the outside garden waiting area at Nemours/Alfred I. duPont Hospital’s.  I waited for an hour and a half for Kane’s doctors to come back to share their findings with me.  The sunshine was shining and there was a slight breeze.  It was very refreshing and exactly what I needed while I was waiting.  As I sat outside checking my work emails, texting friends and family, and watching the clock I realized a little more time than anticipated had passed by, so of course I started to get more anxious.

Yes, I tend to go from zero to a thousand but I already didn’t have great feelings going into this appointment so I started to panic a little bit more.  Then I remembered how Kane gently kicked me in the pre-op room before they took him back.  He is very aware and probably knows me a little too well and recognizes when I start to panic.  So as I sat there I started to slow down my breathing and look around at the flowers in the garden to see what colors surrounded me.  “Smell the roses” (flowers); “look at the colors”; this is what I tell all my students to do when they get anxious or stressed out.  I knew I needed to take my own advice.

Then the doctors finally came out.  I knew by the look on their faces that things had changed.  They sat down on either side of me and started showing me the photos they were able to take.  I realized at times I wasn’t listening very well.  All I could see were the number of ulcers in the photos.  I knew then for certain that our “normal “was going to change drastically.

To make a long story short, the number of ulcers inside his intestines and his colon increased significantly, as did the damage they were doing.  Drastic measures needed to be taken in his treatment plan.  The doctors told me they took several biopsies and we would get those results in a little over a week.  Clean eating, Boost plus, and Pentasa was no longer an optimal treatment plan for us.  We discussed briefly the options of Remicade IV infusions or Humira injections.  After the induction phase (6-8 weeks) for whichever treatment plan we chose we could then move toward “home” treatments.  This means we would either all get trained to administer shots to Kane OR he would be able to get home infusions.

I knew that eventually Kane’s Crohn’s disease would get worse.  This was always going to the next treatment plan for him.  I just truly believed we would have more time before it came to this.  I thought we had at least 3 more years before we had to take the next step toward a more intense treatment plan.  But we don’t have anymore time.

I could be a mess and let the fear of the unknown take over my thoughts, but I refuse to do that.  I KNOW Kane is still much better off than other kids his age; his organs are still intact.    After he woke up from his anesthesia I had to tell him the results.  He kept asking what he was doing wrong and saying this wasn’t fair.  And he’s right, this isn’t fair, but this is life and it isn’t always fair.  We have to make the best of the life we have.  Yes, his feelings and fears are valid.  I too share those same feelings and fears.  But what keeps me going is knowing that we will overcome this new challenge and get him healthy again.  We’ll do it… TOGETHER!

 

enough already….

Walter Payton said “Remember, tomorrow is promised to no one.”  I have never felt that so intensely as I do right now. Do you ever feel like you can’t catch a break… like there seems to be a huge, gray cloud just sitting over top of your head… and it isn’t just affecting you but those around you too?!

It has been a very rough few years… and I just feel like there is a reason it hasn’t gotten any easier, but I keep searching for that reason because I haven’t come across it yet.  The crap started to get more intense in November… I got into a bad car accident with K2.  I ended up totaling my car and both of the air bags deployed in the accident.  I have always been a firm believer in the statement “things are replaceable and people are not.”  I just never thought I would have to experience that in my lifetime to that magnitude.  The only one with scrapes, bruises, burns, and a partially torn tendon was me.  I can honestly say I am so thankful that I was given those experiences and not K2.  While we were able to walk away unscathed I still think about the fact that in that one moment in time I could’ve seriously hurt the kids and/or myself.  I still find myself scared out on the road especially when K2 are with me.  I get even more scared and on edge when they are fighting in the car!  It is a work in progress… I remind myself that I need to show them bravery… I need to show them that whatever you are afraid of you have to try to not let it beat you… don’t give up and always fight!

In addition to the car accident, my family has experienced a lot of loss over the last few months as well.  Yes, I know that everyone experiences loss and everyone has a story and my story and situation could be worse.  But right now I feel like me and my family all need a little break from all of this.  Please leave my friends and family alone just for a month or two. One positive thing to come from all this loss was all of the family getting together to not only grieve but also to love and support each other.  It is sad that loss tends to bring us together but I know in my heart that those who have passed are watching and smiling down on us while we tell stories of the past and relive some of those fun adventures.

Then 2018 ended and I thought for sure 2019 would bring more happiness… maybe even a little less stress?!  While there have been many positive experiences in the month of January, (Kailee got featured on Dover Skating Center’s Instagram account:
https://www.instagram.com/p/BtMvhMxgOXw/?utm_source=ig_web_button_share_sheet , Kane got for the most part, a positive report from his Gastro doctors, we had a family fun day bowling at xbos, and I got to get all dressed up and attended Dancing with the Delaware Stars) there still has been much sadness and sorrow.  And the worst part in all this sadness and sorrow… living far away from my family, especially when they need me and I need them the most.  I crave the connection that only they can give me.  I need to see them in person, to hold on tight to them, and feel their loving hugs.  I feel so helpless here while they are there struggling.  I hate not being able to help out.  It makes me feel lost.  Sometimes you need to take a timeout from your every day routine and just go home…

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just my luck…

Two weeks ago today I was busy doing laundry and gathering all the materials I was going to need for my work trip to Austin, TX.  My coworker and I were traveling with several students and faculty from our STEM programs to the AAAS Conference (American Association for the Advancement of Science).  The students were all scheduled to present as were all of the “adults” in the group.  My coworker and I were presenting a poster on “Modification of the Student Support Structures to Close the Achievement Gap” with one of the Math faculty members.  The AAAS conference and our time in Austin was amazing.  We even got to attend a session where Joe Biden, former Vice President of the United States, spoke.  I returned last Monday and thought about all the work I was getting ready to walk into the next day.

Tuesday morning I woke up early, went for my morning run, and was greeted at the top of the stairs by a coughing Kane.  Usually he is wide-eyed and bushy-tailed, all ready to start his day.  But on this particular morning he sadly asked me if he really needed to go to school.  I felt his forehead while I gave him a hug and decided to take his temperature.  He had a low grade fever so I called his doctor.  The nurse on call suggested we get him in as soon as possible just in case (his immune system is already compromised by the Crohn’s).  We went to his appt. and the doctor didn’t want to take any chances and planned to treat him with Tamiflu.  She did tell us he could return to school once he had been fever free for 24 hours and didn’t have any other symptoms.  

Fast forward to Friday that week.  Kane is all better now and back to school.  I wake up and feel kinda terrible.  My head feels like it is about to explode any minute.  I drop K2 off at their respective places and go on my normal, Friday Dunkin’ Donuts run for my SSR coworkers.  I get to work and think to myself “there is NO WAY I am going to be able to make it through the day let alone another hour.  I feel like crap.”  But I go through a few emails, eat my egg white breakfast, and realize my face hurts.  Literally, every bite I take my face hurts more. I decide I am outta here and going home to bed.  And that is exactly what I did.  

Luckily I already had a doctor appt. scheduled for later that day.  I go home and slept until 2pm.  If you really know me I don’t normally do naps.. at all.  But nap I did Friday.. I went to my doctor appt, got the flu test swab, and was sent on my way with Tamiflu.  I picked up K2, fed them dinner, and then slept until Sunday.  

 

 

Have you even been swabbed before for the flu test?  It SUCKS!  It was my first time ever (if it happened before Mom, I definitely have suppressed that horrific moment from my memory) and I pray to God it is the last time.  Sunday (yesterday) comes and I start to feel somewhat human again – this is a new kind of human for me since I have been asleep since Friday night!  Anyway, I get up, shower, clean up the house a little, make the kids’ lunches for the week along with my breakfast, and try to catch up on everything I have missed for the past two days.  I go downstairs to talk to K2 about dinner and Kailee has pink cheeks.. and this time it isn’t because she put too much blush on.  I take her temperature and it is 102!  DAMMIT!  Kevin and I negotiate who is staying home now tomorrow and possibly longer, depending on Kailee’s symptoms Monday.  I pick Monday and he picks Tuesday.

Kailee wakes up today still with a fever and so I call the doctor and we head back in.  The doctor looks at me once we are in Kailee’s room and says “Welcome back.”  Although I know she was being funny I wasn’t really laughing.  Lucky for me (or her) she couldn’t see my resting bitch face because I was wearing a mask.  Yep, that was me wearing one of those masks people wear out in public that others make fun of.. I know why I was wearing it so no one freak out at me or think I am complaining about wearing the mask.  I am complaining about how unsexy these masks look!  Anyway, back to Kailee.. they check her for strep, acknowledge her fever, and decide to send the final person standing in our house home with Tamiflu.  I did forget to mention that Kevin called his doctor Friday once Kane and I were both on Tamiflu and they were very happy to give him some too.

Tomorrow is Tuesday and I will be heading back to work to see what to tackle first.  Honestly, I am a little excited to get out of my house too!

By the way, remember how I wrote before about Team Challenge, the Rock ‘N Roll Marathon run in New Orleans (#RunNOLA) I signed up for to run for Kane and the Crohn’s & Colitis Foundation???  Yeah well that race is Sunday.. six days from now…  

When I put Kane to bed tonight I told him I knew I probably wouldn’t do as well as I had trained since I will be recovering from the flu.  He simply looked at me and said, “that’s ok Mom, just don’t give up.”  

Kane:  I don’t plan to give up; I plan to put one foot in front of the other and do the best I can do.

right around the corner…

In less than a month I’ll be running the Rock ‘N Roll Marathon in New Orleans, Louisiana. There are so many reasons why this is a big deal for me, and my family. First, I have not been able to train for or run a marathon in over two years. I either had an injury, was recovering from an injury, or taking care of familial responsibilities.

Second, running this marathon is a big deal because I am running this marathon for Kane and the Crohn’s & Colitis Foundation as a member of Team Challenge.  Kane was diagnosed almost 2 years ago when he dropped a drastic amount of weight, refused to eat, stopped participating in activities he loved, and complained all the time because of the amount of pain he was in.

Lastly, it’s a big deal because my family will be there to watch and support me (thank you Pit Crew!). My mom and dad came to my very 1st Half Marathon in Baltimore, MD (the Baltimore Running Festival) 11 years ago, but my mom has never seen me run a full marathon (and we’ve never been to New Orleans!).

I admit training for this marathon has been brutal at times – running 16 miles in a snowstorm, running 18 miles on the treadmill, running 20 miles on a 3.8 mile repeat course – but it hasn’t always been brutal. I was able to run more training runs with my DDSR friends (thanks Holly, Jeanette, Joe, Gerry, etc.) and really get to know each one of them better. And I got to meet with and run with my new Team Challenge friends (Morgan, Heather, Sam, Greta, etc.).

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Training has allowed me to push myself both mentally and physically. There have been so many times where my body was working against me. I have developed new aches and pains (that won’t go away). And when my body would hurt me physically, my head would then try to play mental games with me telling me to” give up”; “you won’t be able to finish”; “you’re too old for this.” But what kept me going was thinking about Kane.

I kept thinking about the games Kane’s mind must have played on him when he was given his Crohn’s diagnosis. I wonder what he said to himself or thought of himself when he had to wear/use an NG tube for 4 months. Kane’s determination reminded me that I can do this! It doesn’t have to be pretty; it just has to get done! And knowing I can and will finish is all that really matters. Well that and that I’m doing it for Kane. I can’t and won’t let him down.

Please consider helping to support me in my endeavors for Team Challenge and the Crohn’s & Colitis Foundation…  in honor of Kane and his battle against Crohn’s.

http://online.ccfa.org/site/TR/TeamChallenge/Chapter-PhiladelphiaDelawareValley?px=3414698&pg=personal&fr_id=7228

running with a purpose… Team Challenge

Ever since Kane got diagnosed with Crohn’s disease I have been doing tons of online research about it.  Meanwhile “big brother” watched me… I kept seeing all kinds of ads on Facebook and in my gmail “spam” emails about Team Challenge.  Finally I decided to look it up.

Team Challenge is a walking and running group who train together locally and then go to destination races.  They offer different running options:  marathon, half marathon, 10K and 5K.  As a member you receive a guided training program that lasts 16 weeks.  In addition to the running experience, a member also fundraises for the Crohn’s and Colitis Foundation.

The Crohn’s & Colitis Foundation is a non-profit organization that is “dedicated to finding the cures for Crohn’s Disease and ulcerative colitis, and to improving the quality of life of children and adults affected by these diseases”  (http://www.crohnscolitisfoundation.org/about/).  The foundation assists doctors and other medical professionals further their research for Crohn’s Disease and ulcerative colitis.

Currently there is no cure for Crohn’s disease.  And while Kane is currently in remission he isn’t in deep remission.  This means he still has areas of inflammation.  As his mother I want to do everything in my power to help him.  I want to fight for every possible opportunity for him.  And what better way to do that than to raise money for an organization (and the doctors, medical professionals, etc.) that is fighting for the same outcome:  a cure.

I get to train, run (!!!) and fundraise all for and in honor of Kane.  I know he has a long fight ahead of him; he has years of battling a disease he can’t control and I can’t control without outside assistance.  But I can start that fight for him right now.  And friends and family can help me and Kane both and support the Crohn’s & Colitis Foundation and Team Challenge.  In March I will be joining Team Challenge in New Orleans.  I have already signed up for the half marathon but if I have to defer my October Marathon then I will upgrade to the full marathon.  But, I still have time to decide which race to do.

Please consider helping to support me in my endeavors for Team Challenge and the Crohn’s & Colitis Foundation…  in honor of Kane and his battle against Crohn’s.

http://online.ccfa.org/site/TR/TeamChallenge/Chapter-PhiladelphiaDelawareValley?px=3414698&pg=personal&fr_id=7228

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we have arrived…

Our traditional family vacation to Martha’s Vineyard is in effect!

One of my aunts has lived on the Vineyard in Vineyard Haven since the 1970s. Another aunt has a second home, her beach home, in Oak Bluffs. Ever since I was born my parents have brought me and my siblings to the Vineyard.  I have very fond childhood memories of our travels to and from MV as well as all of our island adventures.

If you know me, you know that I have adopted most of the family traditions my parents gave to me and have introduced them to K2.  So far they haven’t complained…

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When my brother and I were younger my parents took us to the Family Campground in Vineyard Haven.  Thankfully I couldn’t scrounge up any old photos of us from so many years ago but I do remember having a great time!  And then too many rainstorms came and soaked us all so my parents started renting houses instead.

One right of passage everyone in my family (and now most tourists too) participate in is jumping off the JAWS bridge.  The bridge has been redone since I was a kid and now has a small bike path and several benches for those too afraid to jump.  The bridge is about 12-15 feet above the ocean and is the dividing line between Edgartown and Oak Bluffs.  Once you jump in the ocean you swim over to the jetty (rocks) and climb out to start all over again.

This year I challenged K2.  I told them they could earn $1 for every jump and $2 for every cannonball.  Kane took me to town after he jumped off 10 times!  In one day he doubled his whole bridge jumping career!  Kailee on the other hand jumped off 6 times.  She too doubled her bridge jumping career.  I am so proud of my bridge jumpers.  They made me promise we would go there at least one more time before we went home.  I know Kane is only doing it to get more money out of me!

Another one of my favorite, adventurous locations here on the Vineyard is the Gay Head  Lighthouse and cliffs.  The beautiful scenery gets me everytime.  Located in the town of Aquinnah, the Gay Head lighthouse is the second oldest lighthouse in the US and the first lighthouse in Martha’s Vineyard (MV).  In May/June 2015 the lighthouse was moved from its original location due to beach and cliff erosion.  The move is 129-foot from its original location.  I loved being able to see the old structure from the lighthouse’s original location.

We also visited the Alpaca Farm today.  Once I saw there was an alpaca farm on the island I knew we had to visit.  K2 begged me to buy them an alpaca, more specifically the 6 day old one.  They just couldn’t understand, Kailee especially, why it couldn’t come home with us and sleep in their rooms?!  They even offered to turn over their bank accounts to buy one.

So far we are having a great time visiting with family and making some great memories!

Stay tuned for more of our adventures…

#RWRunStreak Recap

If you recall from a previous post #RWRunStreak, created by RunnersWorld.com, is a challenge to runners to run at least a mile every day starting on Memorial Day and ending of the 4th of July.  That is equivalent to 37 days of running.  Now, most people accept that challenge and determine their daily mileage accordingly.  As we know I am not most people and wouldn’t allow myself to run “just a mile”.  Running 4-6 miles everyday starting on Memorial Day began to take a toll on my body.

The last weekend in June I decided to take K2 to the Philadelphia Zoo.  We have a membership to the zoo and so we don’t tackle the whole place.  We let K2 pick out 2-3 areas they want to go to and then we leave.   Thank goodness this is our tradition because I realized then that I would not be able to go home and run 4-6 miles.  If I was that determined to run I would only run 1 mile.  Mentally that was hard for me but I knew that I had to suck it up!   And that is exactly what I did.

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Unfortunately the pain took over, my form was all over the place, and it was taking more miles to settle into the lopsided run that I started to adopt.  That’s when I finally called the Ortho doctor, got the diagnosis, and attended my first PT session at Premier Physical Therapy.  That day I also broke the #RWRunStreak because I didn’t run!

Let me tell you that was a really hard pill for me to swallow!  After the PT session (at the end he set me up to the STIM machine) I felt great but I knew that I had to take the orders of the doctor and physical therapist seriously if I was going to be able to train again for the Marine Corp Marathon (in late October) and run it pain free.

 

It was fun committing to such a challenging running program.  I was very determined to do it, even though it was for 37 days.  But taking a break was what I needed to help the old body heal.  I was able to log more miles last month and also get paid during some of my runs.

Soo what have I committed to this month?

Come on, did you really think I wouldn’t commit to a running challenge?

Yes, I am injured!
Yes, I am allowed to run!
In fact, I was told to cross train more, lift more often, and get myself back to yoga.

For the last several years I have committed to running 100 miles in July.  The challenge was created for both runners and walkers.  So far I have ran 24 miles.  Yesterday I ran in the rain for 6 miles and felt great!

My original route was only 5.67 miles.  KEM (Kane) asked me before I started if he could run with me.  I told him how many miles I was planning to run and he quickly took his running request off the plate.  But when I finished my run I asked him if he wanted to run a very short distance with me (let’s be real – I didn’t like that I ran 5.67 miles.  I wanted it to be an even 6 miles!).  He agreed, which really shocked me.  But he ran with me for half a mile!  I was super excited that he had finally joined me on a run.  KMM (Kailee) was not thrilled with being left behind but she took it in stride.

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What challenges/programs have you set out to conquer but then had to opt out of?
What hobbies do you have that your kids have asked to participate in?

 

and the verdict is…

I have tendinosis, not to be confused with tendonitis.  Basically where my glute and hamstring meet or join together there are some beginning signs of degeneration.  Several treatments are available but only one is covered by insurance – PHYSICAL THERAPY.  At this point I have been struggling daily with pain so physical therapy is the best choice.

The second option is a new procedure called “dry needling.”  This is very similar to acupuncture.  The physician inserts a needle (dry, with no medication) into the problematic area in an effort to improve flexibility and reduce pain.  There have been positive results with this treatment plan but insurance isn’t covering it in most areas.  So physical therapy it is.  The third option is surgery and let’s be real… it isn’t THAT bad.

The PT conducted a lot of strength testing on my first day and determined that my left quad and hip are very weak.  My hamstrings and core are very strong but not the hip or quad.  AND, although the Ortho doctor initially thought I could get away with a few visits for exercises and stretches the PT suggested a consistent 5-6 weeks.  I need to strengthen the left side while stretching it at the same time.  I told the PT it was my BF’s fault that the problematic area got so bad.  Damn girl decided to go and have baby #2!  Since she had her 2nd angel I stopped lifting and going to yoga.

After my first PT session I took two days off from running (although one of those days I did cross training with that BF in a class called Cycle Fusion).  The other day I rested completely (I admit to hating it the entire time!).  Today was my second day of PT and let me tell you I was sweating like I had just ran 5 miles!  The PT worked me hard but I don’t hurt to the point that I can’t imagine going back again tomorrow.  Yup, stupid me goes back tomorrow, at 7am no less.

Anyway, enough about me and my old body.  The real reason you checked out this post was to find out KEM’s results from the endoscopy and colonoscopy in June.  Overall it went well.  Even though it took almost 4 hours before the doctors were able to take him back to the surgical room, the biopsy results were better than the results from a year ago.  (There was an emergency with another child and so we appreciated the doctors tending to that child first.)

The inflamed area the docs couldn’t get to for the last year was finally reachable and so they took several biopsies.  The doctors did find new pus pockets that were not there back in February when KEM had his MRE.  The docs did their best to flush those pus pockets to no avail.  The pus pockets are active areas of inflammation.  KEM needs to have another MRE this month before he goes back to the docs in August.  At this point the GI docs do not feel the need to change his treatment plan.  They plan to make that decision after the MRE results.  Fingers crossed they are still positive results.

KEM was a trip after the staff at AI DuPont gave him his feel good meds.  He asked me if he was a unicorn AND told me that I had 4 eyes and 2 holes in my nose.  I kindly reminded him that he had 2 holes in his nose too!  Thank you as always goes to AI DuPont and their amazing staff.  God’s gifts to medicine work at hospitals specifically for children.

NOTE:  KEM asked me to photograph and videotape him so that he could watch himself after he drank the “feel good juice.”  Unfortunately I am unable to upload the hysterical videos.  Or maybe that is a good thing!

          Are you a good patient when it comes to following doctors orders for yourself?
If you were told you couldn’t run or had to take time off would you?

Up next: Team Challenge, RWRunStreak, and our upcoming trip to Martha’s Vineyard….